A Chill Pill

Lately, I feel like I have been taking doses of the good old chill pill, more and more in my life....which is, incredible for me! I am laughing more at the kids, expecting spills so that way less anxiety comes when they happen, and following my Dad's advice, "just let them fight". :) Rawl was tackling Milly, and I thought to myself, "why don't stop screaming, stand up and....fight like a MAN!" So, I left. I watered the grass for a minute but seemed like eternity, I basically went nuts, as both kids were screaming bloody murder by now. I came in, Rawl's head was under Milly's foot, she ran to a room and slammed it behind her. I asked Rawl, "Did you like that Rawl? "No." "Then don't tackle Milly." And that was that. I have done a whole lot of work to produce this slow change in me, the calmer, chill pillier me, and its you know a two step forward, one step back, but fact is, I can see progress, and so frankly...I am thrilled!!

Here's the skinny on an awesome program I found that a wonderful woman gave me to borrow. It is a little pricey, not if you just buy the book, but I bought it--you can actually rent it for less :) I bought it cause I trust it--its totally structured around the scriptures, and based completely in and through them, and has twelve thought patterns that you try to develop, to think like Christ. I will cycle through these like ole' Ben Franklin did on his twelve or so goals. It deals with all my issues, and concentrates and focuses my efforts, so why not? Basing my approval from the Lord, not others, allowing everyone their agency, basically all things I've been trying to work on...and need to keep working on!! The whole goal of it all, is to find joy in each day, no matter the day, even when sorrow and trial are involved. Here's a paragraph giving an idea on a changed thought pattern, in kind of an example prayer,

"I choose to overcome my weaknesses, not so Thou will love me more, but so I can feel Thy love more. I perform to become like Thee. I exercise my faith, seeking thy power and influence for the purpose of developing my capacity to love as Thou lovest, to be patient as Thou art patient, to have Thy peace in my inner world this day. Help me, Father, to value myself as Thou valuest me. I will treat myself with awe and respect this day. I know who I am, where I came from, and why I am here. I seek this day to feel my great worth and the great worth of all those around me. As I choose to focus unto the spiritual world this hour, I can feel and see who I really am. I no longer look unto the temporal world for value, for validation, or approval. I feel my value from Thee. I receive my validation from Thee. With Thy great help, I am able to create good feelings of worth within my temple, and then share these greatest feelings with others. I am able to give unto others because Thou givest unto me. " James B. Cox, pg 40 Becoming Spiritually Centered

Well, ebedee bedee thats all folks.